She didn't have to say the right things 

The cancer had said all of it 

And had 

Like a thief 

Taken normal 

She hurt thoroughly

And only cried 5 times 

_people grieve differently 

It was then I saw him, really


He was so small


Yet I could not put my arms around him

I watch her carefully collect her things 

Her palm sweaty from the tiny trinkets of falsehood

Disorganized childhood

Death 

She held them carefully out to me 

"I cannot take them from you" I told her

"But I can teach you how i set mine down"

I forgive you 

And like soil can be reawakened to produce fresh fruit 

You will soon grow like bamboo

Strong and quick 

__i know because I'm praying for it

I asked you to share with me a small picture of what I meant to you

Your brought me bushels and bushels and bushels and bushels and bushels and bushels and bushels and bushels and bushels and bushels of apples 

__To many to finish in a lifetime 

I'll take the ocean and all of its chatter 

And know I could never swim to His end 

__your love for me 

When she couldn't answer me 

When I asked her how she was 

Through the flock of geese 

caught in her throat

Then I knew 

__Somethings about to change 

Do you remember anything I told you about my brother 

He said

Does he have asbergers? 

I ask

No I do

He confides

My brother is autistic.

I feel really bad for him. 

I just want him to be happy.

__the things people live with

The person that makes you feel most defeated with just two words

Can also make you feel like 

the most able bodied strong woman you'll ever come in contact with 

Like electricity or strong like

A storm wind

Like you never have to wear makeup again

Because your skin is 

plenty 

__because I care what he thinks of me

It came out 

Because she is quiet and 

There is no pressing 

Only calm

Soft

Ears

_so I told her everything