I tell her twice 

"Til all of this calms down"

She thanks me 

But inside I imagine she is thinking 

"All of this will not calm down

My husband is going to die"

_i never have the right words 

Linds

I find you

Like a tree

With shade 

There are not many words

Just shade

And a drink of water for a thirsty soul

No piddling around for swaying or conflict

Firm like a muscle that is used

Distinct like a flamingo on one leg 

Steadfast, unlike Michigans weather 

Jeannie

Lavendar

Still

After months in the dark village of alaska

Still

Smells sweet 

Like a house

A chimney, wet with fire 

The sun earning his hands over the sand

Carving his way into our lake 

You have never changed 

You are warm

And kind 

And pregnant with perfume 

Even though I have never smelled it on you 

I am nothing 

But a seagull in a city

Trying to fly home 

_heavenbound

What will I say when she needs highlights 

And we both know her husband is home with two children 

Dying 

Why am I worried about what I will say

When it is her who is losing

This man 

__brain tumor 

It is better to give 

Than to recieve

_Jesus

Gospel

Living all of these years as if the roof is caving in

my hands and Elbows

Shaking 

Trying to hold it all up so people will say

What a very nice house you have 

How very strong you are 

Good work 

Always thought I'd be homeless without it and that's why I put all my energy there

I finally found that once I had nothing left 

And all of it fell in 

That just outside was a mansion He had built for me

I was just to preoccupied striving for myself all these years 

To accept his care 

His strength

Himself 

Applause 

_addict 

Black sheep

Dirty sheep

Weak sheep

Empty sheep

_exactly where he wants me

_need 

I'm incapable 

_best news