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My boss noticed too

The way your tone carried your story into the room 

She asked me about you at the color bar 

It may have been about the time spent in Colorado and the way it left you without the horses, the pigs, the ranch

And every organ in you 

Empty and angry

He tried to kill you, you say

And point at the hair on your head, explaining how now we will have to cut it short because it falls out every two years 

Because of the poison he wasted on you

While you breathe

I think it is only the river that makes you happy

The base of your boat is the man in your life 

He carries you

The river,

Just the two of you intertwined as lovers 

He grabs at your finger tips when you put them deep in his skin 

He died, you say

In your basement after giving you a ring

I had To remind you about him

that a real man does exist 

After you say the man you are with has made you hate men

And I always ask you why your still there 

Hating him 

In your home 

You like that he talks back, 

That's everything

your walls don't respond with a voice and you say that yes you two will kayak together this summer

In the river

Where your voices carry across the water 

As if there is more 

But it is

The voice that comes from your bones 

The bones without water 

The bones without breathing 

The bones without blood 

I want to see you live

But don't know how to tell you

My boss noticed too

That you need more

That it will be at the right time.