Father's Day

"I'm so sorry"

You mention

And hold up your hands

They are shaking 

There are pills full of water 

Collecting in your eyes 

And out pours all of it 

The violent hurt of a father 

you cannot celebrate on a day you should be able to 

The man you almost loved surrounding all four sides of you at the church water fountain 

A man your daughter almost called father 

And a divorce from a man who

Left you alone with Emma

You apologize over and over again to us

While we watch the trauma in your fingertips  

_no apology necessary