wish I could have been there

i can see it happening
the building is like a storm with all the chatter
everything is wooden including the mistress who just got called out in front of everyone

I think its funny all of that happening while people prowl for a table around all of you
eyes wide the lot of you
beer drinkers clueless
seeking a seat like a hungry dog for food

they are both there, you watch it all
oh its been so long since they were both there in the same room
she used to enter the house without a key and sing the children to sleep and now
im furious at the place she has in your life

I can see it
she is set back in her chair
yes, attacked and yes it was justified
we will do what it takes to fight for this

now let me talk to you, friends of this situation
I dont understand how you can just sit there with her
all of you
collectively sharing a beer and telling a story about your day
oh how cute your glasses are and your new bangs
gross
you act as if you dont know that 
someone elses husband just climbed into her bed
and you happen to call the wife of this man family

im so confused
how can you call HER family too?
bump elbows,
buy a beer
oh sit here sit here

this isnt how family works.
I think im mad again dangit

Im mad because this woman who has for practically her whole life
fought to love this man
him, tall and like a piece of lumber
so quickly crumbles when a young chicky-babe strokes his fancy
oh he thinks its fancy
this earth might tell him THAT is fancy
but just wait
is he really all that strong and how long will SHE keep him hypnotized
I think she must be crazy too giving herself to such weak weak man
does she really think shes strong enough to keep him around
tall like a piece of lumber

this woman
HIS WIFE
may I remind you
as you sit there with his MISTRESS
laughing over a beer
is a WOMAN not a girl
not a chicky BABE
geesh
she is the one who bore his children
she is the one who built a home
she is the one who cleaned his house and made his meals
she is the one who he called all those years while away driving truck
and wrote note card after note card of verses
packed little meals to surprise him
unfaithful man that he was, she endured and loved because
love believes all things
hopes all

sure, sure you can love her someday
but not while she lets that into her bed and her body
you can love her once she is a tree that has fruit
but now? not now. she is giving away all of eternity for this sugary feel good bite
gross

yes he does not deserve his wife and
why does he think he can punish himself with something he wants

im so confused as to how you can sit there
elbows on the same table
eye contact so perfectly alligned with this woman who spreads herself like butter
over top of a man who is not hers

this silly addiction will not pay off in eternity
it wont

and I know who will get the crown.


"Lord, who will dwell in your sacred tent? who will live in your holy mountain?
... the one who keeps an oath (vow//promise) even when it hurts and does not change their mind." Psalm 15